Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Trouble

Ok, I admit it. I'm having trouble starting up. And not just this blog. Everything. It seems strange that I would just have to move on as if nothing has happened when my life will never be the same. I'm unmotivated to continue my work, I have trouble concentrating, and I'm downright angry that I'm expected to just pick up the pieces and go on. When my brother died I was angry that the sun came up the next day. What I'm going through now is similar. I wash oping this blog would provide an outlet, but I've been unable to come up with topics to write on. I just got my new laptop last Monday. Shouldn't I be ecstatic to be able to use it for such a glorious purpose as posting on my blog. Even though my father will never read it? My boss left about 3 sticky notes with an article on my desk last week, and I only found it yesterday when I popped into the lab briefly. I have mountains of work to do and no drive.

Right now, I'm just hopeful that this rant will kick my ass into high gear and wake me up already. Will someone please help me out here?

P.S. construction project is in the final stages, and although hammering helps a lot, I'm still lacking motivation.

3 comments:

knobody said...

i'm sorry. i don't know how people manage to get back their lives, but i know that they do. it just takes some time.

so, as a distraction, want me to bring over my brand new, used *broken* pipette and see if it's completely hosed and i need to bitch at the seller? some idiot cranked the p-1000 down to 40 uL and now it's stuck. can't move it up past 41.

makita said...

Sure, bring it on over. I'll be at home most of the day. Just give me a call before you do to make sure.

Paul said...

I'm sorry to hear how difficult it's been for you, Makita. I can't imagine handling things any differently than you have, though. What you're going through has got to be one of the toughest things in life to go through. If it's any consolation at all, I miss your blog posts, and I miss your comments on my own blog posts. I understand why you haven't been writing though, so don't put yourself under any pressure to begin sooner than you want to. I've got your blog bookmarked and will remain a loyal reader no matter how long you take to begin writing again.